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I cried.

Or at least I was in the middle of crying, about 3 weeks ago, when Wei Xiong called me and said he was in the neighbourhood and wanted to drop by. So 3 sobs was all I could let out. I felt cheated : 1 year of no emotion, and when release finally came, 3 sobs was all I was afforded?

But I was glad as well, cause it meant company. We went back to his place (cause apparently bigger is better) and we made the Max Brenner's hot choc that I showed before while watching the Olympics. I slept over, and woke up only at 5pm the next day, and though I had homework, we went to watch a movie with Ching, Khong and Wei Xiong's friend Alvin.

Side note :


THE MOVIE WAS HILARIOUS. I normally hate documentaries, but this one was so good!

Then we went back to my apartment and it was his turn to sleep over. And I realised how nice my couch was to sleep on. In fact, I've been sleeping on my couch nowadays...hahaha...it's so fun to have a change!

One day when I was bored, I tried to cry again. 3 sobs is not enough. But I'm empty. Nothing. No water works for me...another year perhaps?

Anyway, the timing was so great, it could only be God given. I've noticed that God doesn't allow me to feel depressed nowadays. If I start getting a bit mellow, something will come up which will keep me busy.

I'm so much better now.

Last week was emotional hell. I woke up and straight away felt it wash over me. I didn't want to leave my bed in the mornings, because getting out of bed, and my feet touching the carpeted floor, meant that I was going back into my life. That I had to live my life. And last week, that was not something I felt like doing.


I'm better now. :)