2 more days!

Every New Years I seem to move addresses "=.= Nowadays I blog less than ever, so really there's no point even getting a new add since my upload quota has barely been touched (yes there's actually a valid reason that I had to change blogs twice - I upload too many pictures :P)! But I think I've found the perfect address that I can stick with :)

I haven't decided yet though! So I shall keep you posted! :D


Today I cancelled my hi5 account - I have never used hi5, I don't even recall signing up for it. And I've been getting a lot of emails from it lately, so I decided to just delete it. But I felt a bit apprehensive at the same time : what if I want to use it in the future for some odd reason? AAAHHH...

ok deleted :P


Merry Christmas everyone :D

Drey turns 18

I totally forgot to say that Escapade was a day after Audrey's 18th birthday - so it was her first time LEGALLY clubbing in Melbourne! We decided to skip an event at Seven the week before so that it was a bit more meaningful :P

Audrey's 18th was a real work in planning - she was so busy all the time, and getting people to help her collect stuff, choose stuff, etc etc etc. The theme was pink, but she told me that it was secretly pink AND SILVER, so I decided I would go pink and silver :P She wanted everyone to wear pink because she wanted to be the only one in silver, and it kinda worked :P

There was a punishment for those that did NOT dress in pink - their hair was sprayed pink with spraypaint. Hahaha...it was held at Uropa Function Room. I got this special gel for my hair, which made it pink, and I really liked it! :) However, it made me a bit self concious on the tram ride back from the salon, and so I confined myself to my room the whole day until I reluctantly left the sanctuary of Arrow to tram up to Uropa.




I had 2 surprises that night : Di was my cousin's classmate in PLC in Melbourne! Such a small world! And Marcus is dating my childhood best friend! I was so shocked - and the way we figured it all out was too funny :P Also, Mei Sze was wondering where she had seen me before, and she realised that she sees me when she stalks Ai Vyn's facebook photos "=.= Hahaha

Marcus, Di, Audrey


Di, Mei Sze, Jian Ming, Marcus

Noelle :)

There were some games : the first was boys vs girls, where the 2 groups had to answer questions about the other gender. Of course, the guys won :D So 3 girls had to treat Audrey as a pole and dance around her, and Diane, Charlene and Wei Jean were picked!





The second game was a treasure hunt. 5 groups of people were chosen by Audrey before the party, and I was hoping I would have been forgotten, so Jian Ming, Mei Sze and I were hiding in a corner so that no one would remember us, but I was called :( But it was fun..hahahaha

Here were the tasks :


(a) A photo of a guy/girl kissing a guy on the cheek


(b) a lipstick kiss mark on your forehead


(c) Get 4 pink accesories and wear them



(d) Find 5 couples

Kao and his girl.

Chris and Naomi

Shawn and Kate

Monica and her guy.

(e) Find an air band and perform!

Ok, I'm not posting up that vid :P

Our team :

Raymond, Charlene, Aaron, Monica



Sarah.

Di.

Albert.



Diane.

Time to cut the cake!

Kao, Kate, Audrey, Steven

Almost everyone!

The big pink bag at the back's mine!

Jinsern.

Sarah, Yang, Audrey

It was a great night overall, and after helping with the clean-up, I headed home satisfied :D And I also headed home with a potential roommate - something I didn't have before. And now it's confirmed : I'm gonna be staying with Wei Zhang at College Square Lygon. At least it's bigger, so if any of you guys wanna visit, you can stay with me!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D


I miss my pink hair! ):

Jon stabbed me with a tag (:

The rules :

Bold the statements that are true to you,
Italise the statements that you WISH were true,
Leave the Fibs alone,
Then stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job. - i wish i had one :(
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie


I 'stab' Seok, Ju, Noelle, Nigel, and whoever else wants to do the tag (:

Blurred thoughts.

New song added : Live Your Life by T.I. ft Rihanna

I don't know how to start this post, because part of me is scared to. Lately, I have only deigned to update my blog when I'm feeling down, or when I have some problem or another. This has to change.

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As soon as I reached KL, a lot of things came crashing down on me. My family has commented that I'm not the same carefree, "joyous" smiley person that they saw in July. Over the past 4 months, a lot of change has occured. Priorities have shifted, principles have been tested, life as I once knew it has changed.

I am now an adult - I suddenly realised this. No longer am I the wide-eyed naive young boy who left home expecting things to be all hunky dory, like they always were. I moved out of my comfort zone, out of a life of unrealised luxury, out of protection, out of guardianship, into a life of total and utter freedom. Freedom in both good and bad ways. Freedom brought the need to make decisions on my own, the ability to make mistakes, and the necessity to pay for the copious amount of mistakes that I made. Freedom corrupted me, but it enlightened me as well.

Melbourne changed me for better and for worse. I went there over confident and pampered, and I returned an insecure shell, but very much independant. I left naive, I returned very much the wiser. I can now carry out anything with conviction. I am now a teamworker, a person who can hold much responsibility, a people-person, a people-pleaser. I expanded my horizons, and sharpened whatever skills I had as weapons. I learnt my strengths and weaknesses, and really, that's the best gift this year.

However, I fell victim to certain hunters. College transformed me from a materialistic snob to a grounded person with the love of others. School destroyed my perceptions of friendships, college rebuilt them to greater heights. Melbourne restructured those perceptions - complications and new conditions. However, in the end - I gained great people that I have the honour of calling friends.

I also learnt that friends that you try your best to hold on to can drift away. You may be in the same country, the same city, the same uni - but a person that you trusted with everything, could no longer be there for you the way they once were. But to complement this, I learnt that friendships never end, and everyday is an opportunity to meet more great people. And I also learnt that the best friends you could have are the ones that are not afraid to try make you live the way you know you should even if you pretend otherwise. True friends are those that accept you for who you are, and not who they want you to be. An important lesson :)

Money, greed, pressure - I came out with battle scars. I placed so many things above things that were more important - family and studies. I've learnt my lesson. I fought to get things that I thought I needed, I weathered disappointment, rejection, hurt to try to prove myself to others - until I realised I didn't need to. This year has been one hell of a roller coaster. Up and down, without warning, without any constant rhythm or direction. There were so many blockages to that light at the end of the tunnel. But in the end, I've made it. Or at least, I'm almost there.

I fell in love for the first time, I confronted personal demons for the first time, I enhanced my relationship with God for the first time in a long time. So while this year may have spit me out with the outward appearance of a wizened shell of a past-me, it's going to be like a phoenix. Phoenixes rise from the ashes - from a soot black deformity to a glorious strong, proud, beautiful wonder. Next year, I may be away from places I am so familiar with, places I went to in times of trouble, and other things. I'll have a roommate, and I'll be living further away from the city - things are going to change. But I'm going to face them.

And I'm going to set my priorities straight, and I'm going to deal with all this pain, hurt, and disappointment in my life. I am going to look to God, I am going to look to my family, and I'm going to look to my friends. I'm going to learn who my TRUE friends are, and I'm going to see the love of my family, and I'm going to trust in Him.

I want to become a better person. Melbourne has set me well on the way to becoming a man of strength, power and conviction, but I have to complete the process here. I have to deal with my personal demons, and I hope that next year, I will have my friends to help me keep the progress up. I can't wait to experience life with dear friends, some who will be geographically closer to me now, and also with those than I'm going to be moving away from. Some weeds in my life have to go. And some of my priorities need to be revamped. And friends that have my best at heart, need to be appreciated more. These are my new years resolutions.


And meanwhile, I may have to endure pain, disappointment, emotion. Which brings me to another thing. Priorities need to be set straight. I started blogging with the purpose of writing my thoughts, unfiltered, raw, and deep. Instead, it's turned into some shallow representation of my life, I place importance on talking about things I do, places I go. And I would rather not blog, than continue to write about this. And so, this is the last post for this blog.

As I said, I'm scared. I hope I'll be able to say that soon :)

I have everything in life going for me, except for one thing : I need to grow out of some issues that I have been running from for a while. Next year : I'm a new me. It took a lot for me to realise what I've been doing wrong. Results were the tipping point - I don't know HOW I managed to get through everything - I did well considering the minimal effort I put into my studies this semester. And other things : impressing people who I know aren't important to me, and probably detrimental to my character development.


Oh, and I have to get something out there. Some people think that they INFLUENCE me. That they exert "peer pressure" on me. For example, when I was asking you about something I wanted to buy, you went behind my back and told a friend of mine "wants to copy me again is it?". I laughed :P Cause people who I didn't even care about "impressing" thought they had some power over me. Sigh. If only you knew what I knew.

Omgosh, I just realised that a number of people would think that paragraph applied to them...aiyah, so what la, a bit of worry in your life can't hurt :P


This is my "anti" new year's post. Cause there is duality in this world. One is the excellent side of life, and the other is the one people try to hide - the anti side. This is my anti-side. New year's post will be my everyday side - the normal one. But, anti-side needed some exposure :)


Thank you, and goodbye :)

notitle

It's one of those nights. I'm annoyed. However, I can't seem to place the source. I have no idea why. For example, someone who I have no problem with just asked me "how are you?" and I felt like biting their heads off - for what? I have no idea. I don't want to talk to anybody, but I do at the same time. I don't even know why I'm annoyed so I can't rant and rave to anyone either. So it's frustrating. And as my frustration increases so does my annoyance - it's one whole vicious cycle.

Insecurities, two types of jealousy, captivity, jarring societies. Drama, backstabbing, guilt. Dissatisfaction and two-way under-appreciation.

Boy, it's good to be back.
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Okay, I actually wanted to do a post on the stuff that I am currently lusting after. And then I deleted it and wrote this emo post cause I was in that place at that time. But as you know, writing is therapeutic to me, and so once I stopped pouring my energy into words, I didn't feel like posting it anymore.

Aiyah, and now I don't evne feel like blogging anymore. Pfft. Hahahah...ok la nvm la tomorrow :) A bit sleep too. Ttfn :)

Ching's 20th

We were supposed to go somewhere for the holidays - Great Ocean Road, Gold Coast, Tasmania,Phillip Island - they were all on the list. However, for one reason or another all of them fell through. For Tasmania, we were going to be there on Ching Ching's birthday, and so I thought we could celebrate it there. When that plan failed, I thought of a surprise, but before I could plan anything, Chingster asked me to plan a lunch for her.

So I did. She even told me what to get her : an Ipod Classic :) So we did :)

Since she had never been to Sofia's, that's the venue that I chose. So we all met up at Melbourne Central and trained down to Camberwell on the 30th of September. "We" consisted of me, Yi Ping, Wei Xiong, Shing Yun, Tse Han, Ching Ching, Wen Ting, See Weng and Fiona.






The food was awesome as usual :) We ordered a few mains and shared, and we couldn't finish everything! Wen Ting and I packed at least 4 tuppawares full of pasta back home at the end of the day.










Wei Xiong stole my camera for a bit, and so he's responsible for the...interesting...pictures below!









And then came the candles :) the gift, and the card...and the...crown? :S














After a nearly 2.5 hour lunch, we decided to go shopping at Chapel Street. Wei Xiong had other plans (mr popular as usual :P), and Yi Ping wasn't feeling that well so they both went back, but not before we harrased some passerbys to take some group shots!




We actually didn't really know the way, and so gave up halfway there, but then at one point, we looked out of the tram and realised we were just a stop away!






After some buying on my part, I was feeling thirsty, and so decided to belanja tea at this really nice looking restaurant called Tea House or something like that. I basically just wanted an excuse to see how nice it was inside :P But the egg tarts were the best ever!








We went for more shopping after that, and then I had to rush back to the city for an Urbanlife meeting, and so we parted ways - the rest went for dinner somewhere else. I love Chapel Street! Next sem I wanna go to the Jam Factory - it's the only place they have TGIF here :(



Hope you enjoyed yourself Ching :)