Unwritten

You know, when I was still back in KL doing A Levels, and my friends were overseas I swore to do something. I swore the same thing when I was on my 8 month break before uni, and most of my friends had left to the UK. :

I would UPDATE MY BLOG FREQUENTLY! Seriously, everyone who has gone overseas has just neglected their babies. Other than Seok Mei, which really befuddles me, cause she's a Med student, and has limited bandwidth. I have 12 hours a week, and have unlimited internet usage, yet I never find time to update.

My blog is no longer personal. It seems that all I update about is outings. I don't even update about ALL my outings anymore, cause by the time I have the blogging bug there are too many to list down. Not trying to brag here, but it's just really annoying. My blog used to be of a certain standard, and now it's just gone right down the drain to join lala's, ah bengs and whoever else have blogs that people diss :P

Decisions about accomodation for next year have to be made. I'm scared, confused. I don't know what to do. There are so many options, yet so few at the same time. I want to do stuff, but I don't want to do them at the same time. I don't know if that makes sense. I guess I have to ask God for his guidance, and just trust him to help me. Since I no longer have a prospective roommate, it's a bit harder. But...things will work out :)

Since I've to come to Melbourne, I can honestly say I've grown as an individual. I've picked up a bad habit (money oh gosh, where have you gone?), but I've strengthened so many characteristics that I never knew I possessed. I've gone through hell, and I've come out unscathed. I've had roller coaster after roller coaster of emotions, but I'm even stronger now. I had divine intervention - that's the only way I think I made it through. But it all worked out for the best. But I still need more. I need more company. I need people I can just hang out with. I see so many people with their groups of friends. They experience life together, they live out their lives joyously together.

People think I have a lot of friends, but they're all singular. I don't have a group of my own. And since I'm used to having that from school and college, it definitely affects me. I love making new friends, and I love meeting new people. Half the people who's blogs I read, I wanna get to know them personally. But life doesn't work that way. I don't know how I became a person that likes to socialise when my parents aren't really so "gung ho" about making an effort to know a lot of people. You may know a lot of people, but that's not enough for me. I want to actually be able to call those people my friends. I guess that's just me.

I don't know why this post is so random. Anything that pops into my mind is coming pouring out. I'm content. At this moment, there are bad things, but there are good things. There are desires, but there is satisfaction as well. At least I'm not emo :D


What did I start this post about again?

Oh yah, blogging regularly.


I AM GONNA UPDATE REGULARLY :D